Since I was a little girl, I have had a fascination with the french language. You would think I would have learned it by now but that requires a little more discipline than I have been willing to give. ;) My mom's BFF's mother is from France. I could listen to her talk all day! To hear someone speak in French is as beautiful to me as a great song or lyric. While surfing the web the other day, I came across a list "50 popular french words". Heart in french is translated coeur. I can just hear MeMe say "mon coeur" (my heart)! Anywho, I thought that would be a beautiful little title for some of my blog posts "Mon Coeur Moments". For the times when I just want to share my random thoughts and what's in my heart! Is that silly? Maybe so but that usually doesn't stop me. LOL!
If I am sharing my heart today, I have to say there has been a little doubt and insecurity creeping in this week. Most of you know that we have a huge shoot on Sunday for my sweet friend Katie O Selvidge. She is starting a new wedding and lifestyle magazine Cottage HIll. Six months ago she emailed me and asked if I would be a part of her new venture. Of course I said YES! Literally 24 hours later I was in the shower and the concept hit me. I could see it in my head and knew it was perfect for what she hopes to convey in her magazine. Fast forward six months and 2 days and we are almost there. Now some of you may be saying "big deal it's just a photo shoot", but to me it's a huge deal. This is someone's dream, someone's whisper from God. For her to place a piece of that in my hand, is such a tremendous honor. Yesterday, I literally teared up at how thankful I am that she is trusting me with this. Admittedly, that little bit of doubt started to sneak up on me.....what if it's not good enough, what if it rains, what if I don't get the plates I want, what if the flowers don't turn out like what's in my head, what if it's cheesy, what if, what if, WHAT IF?! My stomach started turning as these thoughts raced through my head. WHAT is wrong with me??? Do I not read my own blog? Wasn't it me that had a post titled "What If-ville Beware"?!
And then this morning, I picked up my Jesus Calling. I didn't read it yesterday so went to July 15th. It literally started "Do not worry about tomorrow!" and at the bottom was 2 Corinthians 12:9. I mean seriously?!
My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness. (2 Cor. 12:9a)
Monday at our bible study this was one of the verses. Was I not paying attention? I actually was and this just reaffirmed what we talked about that night. The gaps in my abilities to pull off an amazing shoot or anything for that matter He will fill. Why? So at the end of the day I can say He did it and not me. So He can be glorified instead of Rae Culver. So when it is all over I can say "Without you God it would not have happened".